Target

Bill never regained
his full physical health
after his stroke.
He lost his job,
his sense of security,
and his independence.
Mostly he lost much of his self-esteem.
All this, of course, was very hard to deal with
and his feelings easily overflowed.
Often they came out as sadness or depression,
and understandably so.
But sometimes his feelings took another form:
anger.
He got angry at his wife, Ann,
very quickly and quite loudly.
He yelled at their children
about the smallest of matters.
Even the family dog didn’t escape his outbursts.
As the pressure within their home built,
Ann sought out a counselor
to help her understand and cope.
What did Ann come to understand?
Bill had lost his former sense of control.
He felt embittered about the unfairness
of what had happened.
He was resentful at those who lived normal lives
and who didn’t appreciate all they had.
He took offense at those who pitied him.
In truth he was mad at the world at large,
at life itself.
Who was within convenient range
when his feelings boiled over?
Not those who no longer came around.
Not the whole world at large.
Just those within easy reach—
the members of his family.
And with whom did he feel safe,
whether he understood it or not,
to ventilate such strong feelings?
Those who had long known him, long loved him,
and would do their best to accept him,
whatever he said or did.

The story of Bill and his family
is a common caregiver story.
Those who are most available to,
and most trusted by, a hurting care receiver
are also the most convenient targets,
and usually the safest.
That awareness may not make the anger
any more agreeable,
but it makes it more clear:
somewhere way down deep
love is at work.

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2 Responses to “Target”

  1. Amrita Says:

    What you say here is absdolutely correct. Its easy to download frustration and anger on a caregiver. My mom was very mean to me yesterday i was feeling bery depressed but after reading this I know what its like.

  2. gilbotics Says:

    Taking care of my alcoholic father that now has Dementia. It’s really hard- the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Thank you for sharing your post “Target”.
    http://www.justdementia.wordpress.com
    -Gilbert

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